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so cool we got to finish laundry and dinner and everything early tonight... Considering how we STILL managed to nap AND get quarters and detergent and such.

we rock. we can do anything if we REALLY try hard enough.

my period sucks. oh well, it's been over a year, i shoulda seen it coming.

are you excited about going to the lake? i wish i were skinny so i dont have to be so bummed out. *heh*

anyways, i got too excited while reading the wedding magazine, so thats why i'm still awake.

just wanted to let you know that... I LOVE YOU!!!

Happy Doy
HAPPY DOY!!

I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE!
Good luck in the school things, and for me too so we can go together
Good luck on the work thing, cuz it would rock if we both had killer jobs
Love you many! Have a good night sleep!

-Love FOOGE

HAPPY DOOOOOY
Hey baby, it's happy doy once again.
what an exciting day we had. So much to do and stuff. I really hope you get that job cuz I didn't think there is any chance that you weren't qualified enough for it.Then we can go to school together next year. We can get lunch and stuff together and I can carry your books and junk.
It'll be so much fun. I just hope they'll have enough room for my program next year.And if you get that job, we can go for our crazy boxing day sale shopping again. So much stuff that we have to go to the car to put away some of the stuff first before we do more shopping.
But it's okay if you don't get it, cuz I'm gonna work very hard for us to be "ok". Lets hope I don't come in late anymore so I don't get suspended again. I am very leepy, I think it's because of all the
BQ we've been eating. And the heat doesn't help either. Anyways, I love you very many. And so do the babies. Have a HAPPY DOY!

love: FOOOGE

I AM GONNA...
become an EVENT PLANNER.... someday...

SOON.

oooh aaah...
i'm so excited about my whole school thing... even if its just for the english upgrade. I am gonna try SOOO hard to kick ass. But this time, PLEASE don't upset me. I was kicking so much ass in my travel class until last term, when you were bad.

My pills are making me feel weird. Like not myself. I'm getting mood changes again... FREQUENTLY.

Do you want a retarded hamster?

Hey beebee,
How are you?? I am bored as usual. Did you have a good time BBQing for everyone? I guess it's not so bad, since no one stayed waaaaay too long this time. But it got boring at the end cuz we absolutely ran outta things to do. But at least we did MOST of what we planned to do on our days off. I', just glad we gotr the carpet cleaned. Senna and Yossif are so happy.

I miss you already. It's almost time to pick Doy up. I thought you were gonna skip work today so we can chill at home today. Anyways, we have to get ready for Father's Day tonight and I think my dad wants to do something as well. Let's hope we have time to do somethiung. I love you very much. I hope you had a better day at work than I did. Bye baby!

*YAWN*
hey sex... so we never got to go to VCC... I guess that's what we get for sleeping @ 3 in the morning. I don't even remember turning the alarm off!

I hope we get to go tomorrow FOR REAL. I misplaced my PEN number. I tried calling the school board, but no one was picking up @ the school records department. Boo.

Anyways, I was just looking thru your past entries. Sorry, I never knew my making fun of you affected you a whole lot. To be honest, back then, I always thought that would be the only way to motivate you. I thought it would make you wanna prove yourself otherwise.

Besides, a lot has happened since those times, and I've totally changed my view on how you see commitment. You have to admit, back then you weren't exactly theee most focused person.

But NOW, seeing you stick to your job for this long, and having you stay with me for even longer, shows me that you HAVE matured. That you are responsible.

Not to mention how impressed I am with all the housework you've been doing lately... DING DING DING DING DING!!!

Anyways, I should get ready for my haircut now. Here's a little excerpt from a song I'd like to "dedicate" to you.

"hope you can forgive me for that time when I put my hand between you`re legs and said it was small, cause it`s really not at all. I guess there`s just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around, Cause the day you realize how amazing you are, you`re gonna leave me!

And you are the only one who, holds my hear back when I`m drunk and get sick And you are the only one who Knows exactly what I need"

YAY! last day of work fot Doy. How was your week? working hard? I'm so excited that we're going school tomorrow. I wonder if my mother is still mad at me for not going to the states with her. She'll get over it. I'm so proud of you for sticking to your diet for so long. I think that if you pooped more you'd be losing more weight. I don't think youshouild be looking at the scale so much anyways cuz it's not healthy... or so i read.

Was your bubble tea tonight?? 2 of them. THe one underneath superstore was a real dissapointment. Remember when i dropped my money. That was NOT cool.

Anyways, I hope you've been feeling better lately. I'm not trying to be bad or anything. It's not i'm being bad on purpose. I just don't know what some things are bad or not. At least i'm learning and stuff. I've been up to date with my bills and junk. I felt so good after I paid that stupid margeret bitch from Toyota. Now all I have left is.... Fido I think. But that's not so much.

I go eat now. THe hot dogs were not enough to keep me full. I talk to you later. I love yo many. Have a good sleep tonight. Have a hapy hair day tomorrow.

June13
I'm writing in this now, okay? Just kdding. I'm sorry I didn't write in this thing sooner. But, nvm. Aren't you excited about school?? I really hope I get accepted soon. If I don't, it might put me off of school forever!! Maybe not forever, but I'll still hate thinking of school. I can't wait for us to both have to go to school abd work a crappy part time job at the same time. We can plan everything we do weeks in advance and get excited over stupid things like "washing the dog" again. It'll be like we have our own sitcom or something.

Missing work made me think of all these things I could be doing right now and I'm starting to regret that I haven't really had a chance to go to school like the way I wanted. Full time and not worry about anything else. I know all you thiknk is that there's no way I can keep that kind of commitment and all that crap, but that's what I really wanted. Not anymore, but it was. And that was why I wasn't interested in school for the longest time.

And all those schools I was interested in that were in the states that I wanted to look into seemed cool too. I doubt you remember this, but when I showed you those articles in the magazine one time, you told me that there was no way I can stay that committed to those kinds of studies. You told me that I can't even pass high school and junk. That's why I haven't brought it up since then. Because I don't need you laughing in my face everytime I talk about going to school. But that's ok now. We finally found something that seems interesting enough for me to not lose focus... hopefully.

You should change the color of this layout. It's really hard on the eyes. Especially in small print like this. You're probably squinting as you read this.

Anyways, I've been bummed out lately. Dunno why? Maybe it's the way i'm eating now or something. Hopefully it's that simple. But i keep thinking about what it would've been like if I never messed up all those times. We would probably be in school, finished up and working now. THen I realize that I probably would've still lived at home with my mom and dad. Which isn't a bad thing, but I don't think I would trade my experience the last 4 years for anything. Your friends are harsh jealous of us, I can tell. They always wanna hang out and stuff. It's stuff like that that makes me feel like we made the right decision. I think i'm just rambling again. I'll write in this thing more frequently, I swear. And yes, I have downloaded porn... NOT ALL, but some. And they are not as hard to find as they once was... I was surprised. In fact, I was shocked when something NOT porn related would show up everytime i searched for something... not the other way around a la not too long ago.

I remember everytime any of us would find porn of any kind we would all share it amongst our sad little circle of friends. One of the guys (no names) found porn in their parents bedroom... what a weird day. It was laso the day we found out he was getting a Modem for Christmas.

Ok, entry too long. Save some for some other night.
Goodnight.

i hate stroganoff. we JUST had ground beef for the past 3 days. It's ME that's on a diet, it's ME thats picky about food... yet YOU chose something that YOU like and something that would be convenient for YOU to make.

"it's easy" you said... "i dont want fish" you said...

good job updating this by the way... You're always on the computer. You're fucking suspended. You haven't written ONCE and you're halfway through your suspension.

You've managed to download new programs and shows and movies and whatnot... Yet you can't spare 5 minutes to do something for me.

This "me and you" thing really doesn't look like it's gonna work out.